Thursday, August 25, 2005
12:07:00 AM
wat kind of life am i living?
i dont noe.
its like a fcuking living nightmare.
i tried my best to understand people.
console them.
make them happy.
do whatever they want me to.
i tried.i tried my best.
but sometimes it seems like i've done nuthing.
i had made no difference in people's lives.
i feel so unappreciated.
i cried buckets of tears for people i loved.people whom i care for.those special people.
but yet wad i've done is not enough for them.
i seems like there's so many more they want for me.
i feel so washed out.
my feelings are ignored.
but i'm a person who sometimes dont even realised i'm being sucked out.
i'm so ignorant of myself.
but there are times i realised tat i'm tired.
so i decided to take my stand.
say wad i wanna say.
dont care bout wat they say back to me.
i juz wanna be heard.
then after all tat mayhem, they hate me.they despiced me.they say i haf a fucked up attitude.
and it was all bcoz of one moment of fury.
tat moment whr i say my point of view.
n juz spit my words.
thn they hate me.n i'll be back to whr i started...trying to console them.
n i start apologising for my actions.
n tried to explain tat i didnt mean it.
i realli didnt.
n they didnt even had the decency to remember wad i had done for them.
but i hide tat disappointment n tried to make them happy.
thats me.
syidah.
its sad iznt it?
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
4:05:00 PM
wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
i'm so damn tired. i mean i'm always tired this week.
TIRED is like so the number 1 word man.
wakakaka...
oh well.tdae i juz did my 3rd paper.
n its nursing science.
n i tot it will be a burden off me bt nooooo...
i realised i lost 10marks olread!
haha.the answer i wrote is totally out of point.
dammit.
but wtf.wads done is like done!
next 2 papers are nursing science 1B n 1C.
n i had nvr paid attention at all during the lectures..
n yeah so tis means i haf to study extra hard.
not tat i had been studying hard neways..
hehehe..
so yeah...kay wait if u tink its hip hip hooray after the exams well think again.n i mean like realli think man...
haha.
cuz my dreaded attachments are like next week.
wat the hell rite?!
juz finish exam.
n then attachments?
its like fcuking nightmares one after another.
wah man..STRESS!!
Stress.
At the age of 17.
Stress.it can happen to anyone.
So beware.
A warning by nurse Syidah.....wakakaka!!
yeah rite.peace!
Saturday, August 20, 2005
5:05:00 AM
hello chaosmie
12:33:00 AM
wad a day man!!
BORED.BORED.BORED.
had my Sociology exams at 3.freak.sheat.hate it.sux.
Fuhh......tats better.been wanting to shout actualli.
thn after tat bloody exam i wanna go Phat Nite at NYP.but.....i didnt go.haiz.
thn Iqah msged me to follow her to Swensons.buy a bdae cake fer her mom.
awwwww so sweet.hehe.
Me n Pat walked around Northpoint to pass the time b4 meeting Iqah.
Yeah we r like 2 no sense of direction gerls......
looked at some bra n panties.reali nice n sexy! ooh baby...hehe.
"stop being horny dammit!"
argh okai.as i was saying.we walkd around n i bought some candies at Mini Toons.
Then went to Old Chang Kee.Pat wanna buy 2 big curry puffs.she very hungry.heh
thn chilled at void deck wait fer Iqah.
After tat we went Swensons ni i went home!! OMG!!
i'm evolving people!! I'M EVOLVING!!!
from a person who always chill n lepak to -------------> a person who goes home straight
OMG! OMG! n i always walk home. NW i take the bus home!
i'm becoming lazier people!!! AHHHH!!!
relax syidah.relax...nvm..at least i still go out..not staying at home.
I'm still the same
i still can survive
woah
relax
wuhh..fuhwee.....
