Thursday, August 25, 2005
12:07:00 AM
wat kind of life am i living?
i dont noe.
its like a fcuking living nightmare.
i tried my best to understand people.
console them.
make them happy.
do whatever they want me to.
i tried.i tried my best.
but sometimes it seems like i've done nuthing.
i had made no difference in people's lives.
i feel so unappreciated.
i cried buckets of tears for people i loved.people whom i care for.those special people.
but yet wad i've done is not enough for them.
i seems like there's so many more they want for me.
i feel so washed out.
my feelings are ignored.
but i'm a person who sometimes dont even realised i'm being sucked out.
i'm so ignorant of myself.
but there are times i realised tat i'm tired.
so i decided to take my stand.
say wad i wanna say.
dont care bout wat they say back to me.
i juz wanna be heard.
then after all tat mayhem, they hate me.they despiced me.they say i haf a fucked up attitude.
and it was all bcoz of one moment of fury.
tat moment whr i say my point of view.
n juz spit my words.
thn they hate me.n i'll be back to whr i started...trying to console them.
n i start apologising for my actions.
n tried to explain tat i didnt mean it.
i realli didnt.
n they didnt even had the decency to remember wad i had done for them.
but i hide tat disappointment n tried to make them happy.
thats me.
syidah.
its sad iznt it?
