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Syidah.
Been living for 20years.
Love the guitars.
Passion for music.
Full-time nurse.
Orange is the new black if u ask me.
Deeply in love with Zyrul Fernandez Shahryszal.
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Sunday, July 16, 2006
9:42:00 PM
the thing that will make me really sad is when someone dont see my efforts. and thus dont appreciate them. in times of sudden urge of anger, people can say really mean stuff. including me. but when people hit me. sometimes it can really hurt.
i think i'm too kind sometimes. not to self-praise. cuz this isnt a good thing to me now. actually i feel really stupid.
people had made me angry in the past. they really didnt appreciate me. the things i did. at the moment when i realise they dont appreciate me, i was damn angry. like wtf rite? ive done things for u and u treated me like shit?
but then few days later. sometimes weeks or months later. i will be back to my normal self. and then treat the person as if nothing happened. i even do more good stuff. is that stupid? please tell me. cuz i really dunno. it hurts me really bad. even when im ok wif the person. but it still hurts me. and i dont wanna think bout the past.
