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Syidah.
Been living for 20years.
Love the guitars.
Passion for music.
Full-time nurse.
Orange is the new black if u ask me.
Deeply in love with Zyrul Fernandez Shahryszal.
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
2:40:00 AM
i think i'm starting to like somebody.
jeng jeng jeng...
HAHAHA!
i dunno why i like him thou. its a big wonder. i mean he's really nice. damn tall. haha. ok not so laa.. juz tat my eye level is at his mouth i think. HAHA! i dunno laa but he's tall laa..
okay. he's height is the same as my all time favourite admirer. haha. my ex laa. the one i've always been talking about. the one tat say lets juz be friends. the one i want to forget about. yeah him. haha.
so now this other guy. something attracts me to him.
but i kip thinking bad stuff. like if we would become exes in the future. (imagine if we would ever stead laa okay) then confirm would be awkward. further more we wont be like friends now. geddit? then i see like his ex-gfs are all really PRETTY! like the most recent i think. she's damn pretty. like wow pretty. im not a lesbo but i still see some girls are pretty. no wonder guys like them. so yeah. bout this. i haf this bad thought tat he like girls who haf the looks. i dont haf the looks laa. so yeah. thn if we would be together, i've got this feeling one day he'll say, "u..i'm sorry..i think i still love my ex.." cuz seriously i'm not a good gf laa. haha. i suck in relationships and stuff.
okay i juz like this guy laa. dun think that i wanna rush into anything wif him laa.
but not as if he like me. sooo.. i dunno why the HELL am i thinking all these shit. wakaka!
but everytime we hanged out at the void deck. i sort of like to look at him. haha.
arghh!! (tearing my hair off)
shit shit shit.
i'm confused! stupid ex of mine. haha. i dunno y i say that uh. but whenever im stressed, thinking of him make me even more stressed. cuz i noe i can never get him. even thou i really want to.
and now i'm starting to like someone.
i dunno if i cant forget him. like TOTALLY GONE!
syidah is going crazy.
take note: if i start spouting nonsense. i might actually trying to ignore the certain feeling in me.
for example. juz now. i actually keep thinking that i like tat guy. and he's like in front of me. and i dun want to think tat way, cuz then my heart will beat very fast. makes me tired. and my brain will start to think of everyting bout me and him. which i noe wont happen. and i juz dun wanna think that i like him, i started to take pics of my feet. (which really looked like alien.haha!) then i started singing nonsense. and i talk rubbish. laughing at everything.
