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Syidah.
Been living for 20years.
Love the guitars.
Passion for music.
Full-time nurse.
Orange is the new black if u ask me.
Deeply in love with Zyrul Fernandez Shahryszal.
=)
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Saturday, December 30, 2006

3:40:00 AM

Okay now i can say..

MOS laa..
wakaka!

Cuz this time i really went in MOS.
Ladies night laa..
So free.
I dun feel like wasting anything.
Haha..
Typical Kiasu Singaporeans..

Anw went with a bunch of girlfriends.

Kin, Iqah, Harpreet, Chewy, Ekha, Diana, Zila and Ain.
It was fun.. =]
Make urself senget before going back in.
But sial uh..
I wasn't senget siak..
But when i started dancing alot.
The head felt damn woozy..
Hahaha..

Ekha had some members.
So made urself more senget.
Wakaka!
4 varieties.
Cool shit sia..
weeeee!
Then went to the Main Arena.
Trance was on. Wahliowehs laa..
Niceeeeeeeeeeeee!

Then Ekha danced with this guy.
Handsome sia. =P
Then Diana danced with him.
Then.. Haha!
I danced with him..
He is sooo nicee smelling.
Like seriously sia..

He looked freaking familiar.
Then found out he's this guy from Anugerah.
This Malay talent show thingy.
OMG laa..
Haha!
And he's one of the most handsome ones.
Cool shit right?

Then we went over The Clinic.
Cuz there was a complimentary entry at a certain time.
Haha...
Cool laa the place..

Weeeeeeeee!

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

11:58:00 AM

He has a gf.
A Hot gf..

I should be crying my eyes out.
Right?
Cuz thats the normal reaction of a normal human being.
When someone whom they really love,
Love somebody else.
They should be devastated.
Crying like there's no tmw.

But why didnt i?
I dropped a few tears.
Which i forced.

Why am i like this?
I am sad.
Shocked too.
And maybe i still wont get over it for a long time.
That he has a gf after YEARS of none.
But i'm not crying?
I should be crying cuz we are not together.
But yet i'm juz shocked.
shocked?
Hah!

Mayb i dont love him like i tot i do.

It's funny saying that.
But mayb the feeling of love,
which i had since Sec 3,
which had never been returned by him,
has finally fade away..

Saturday, December 23, 2006

12:18:00 PM

Since WHEN?

thats all i wanna noe.
ok mayb i wanna noe more.

Who?
How?
Why?

Sial uh.
I've never been thru the worst breakdown.
And yesterday i tasted shit.
The shittiest of all shit.
Am i stupid?
Stupid to open my heart to those who love me?
And now this.

Anw dude.
Thanx for keeping ur promise.

Someone.
Pull me from wherever i'm standing.
Push me to the ground.
Throw me anywhere.
I dont care anymore.

It was the suckiest thing to noe right before a gig.
Right before a gig which u r going.
When's the last gig we went?
Hah!
It was in freaking June.
And from then onward things went havoc.
Like what the fuck?
Nevermind.
Its okay.
I'm okay.
Juz normal.

Nothing distroyed.
Only my make up.
It went all smudgey.

Nah i'm okay dude.

Gig was okay.
Thanx Piz for the tix.
Oh yah i want the pix aite..

Drank quite abit.
Juz enuf for me to haf that woozey feeling.
But not too much till i'm gone.

Saw Darina.
DARINA!
haha..
dah lame tk nmpk kau.
I didnt recognise her at first.
Then after many times we talk.
And i finally confirmed it was her voice.
Then i realise it was really Darina.
I couldn't believe i saw her there.
Cuz i was at a hardcore gig.
haha.
of all the places to meet her again.
But it was great to see her laa.

Then finally when Incontrol performed,
I moshed for the first time.
wakaka!
Serious..
i've never moshed laa ok.
so yes.
Juz a point to remember.
Wear tight fitting shoes.
So that while moshing it wont come off.
Hahahaha!

I couldn't careless if he ever said he dun like girls moshing.
Cuz i'm nuthing to him.
Not even then.

Fuck.

I'm ok laa ok.
Ok like yesterday's chicken rice.
Hahaha..
Lame ass.

And yes.
He has a new phone.
Very nice.
Meaning he has a new number too.
Which i dun haf.
But i dun nid it.
He wont give me anyway.

So dude.
Good luck.

Guess ur happy now.
cool.

Fuck laa.

Why am i talking like one emoticon kid?

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck.

Anyone wanna go out and eat?
I wanna go eat till i vomit.
Then mayb drink.
No.
This is not a way to relieve stress.
Cuz im not stress.
Its a way to enjoy life.
Yes.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

2:14:00 PM

MOS gilerrr laa siak..

wakaka! Milkshake Party ok..

Today's plan was to go eat Laksa with Zy at Bugis.
Then check out Gyant and Melly at their workplace.
And at night i go MOS wif Iqah and Kin.

Everything went as planned.
But the MOS part..
nahhh..
wakaka!

We went to Marina Square to borrow Candy's top.
Then decided to head to town to see Melly.
Melly hard at work seh..
Muke smangats..
hahaha!
then we waited she finished work.
and Farish came along.
So we chilled awhlie and went to Lucky.
Jadi orang filipines kejap..
wakaka!
tak pernah seh jln2 Lucky.
As in really walk thru the shopping centre.
usually juz go stright to the foodcourt or pool.
we wanted to buy all the same watches.
3 for $10 sia!
wakaka!
one for $4.
but in the end didnt buy.

then we headed to Subway.
to visit Gyant.
Hahah!
klakar siak Gyant.
she tot i came alone.
but i was actually with Melly Farish and Zy.
She came out from the store to the counter and shouted
"SYIDAH!"
Then she waved her arms wildly.
wakaka!
skali she saw the rest..
mcm tk paiseh arh betol2...
HAHA!

Then after meeting Gyant.
We finally went to eat.
which we delayed since morning.
hahaha..
YEY!
we ate LAKSA YG sedap.....
wakaka!

After that we headed to Esplanade.
Met up wif Wan, Zean, Aidil, Hafiz, Arab and Mas.
We chilled awhile.
damn irritating Wan.
haha..
stoopid face of his..
Had lots of laughing..
Then i went to MOS.

Sial ah..
came there and the queue is
damn freaking long sia!
while queueing we saw lots of friends.
liha, ermi, su, hafiz, khal, man, ema, muzakhir, khirman, imran, udin..
and lots lots lots more sia..
HAHA!
milkshake party.
free admin for ppl with the tix + student pass/11B.
queued till almost nearing it.
but in the end we exited the line.
haha..
PACKING siak line up..

and so..
all the way i spent time with my Member lurp2.
hehe..
had lotsa fun.
like seriously.

we walked from clarke quay till plaza singapura.
then chilled there and eat cup noodles.
talked bout some stuff.
then we walked some more till Istana Park.
we sat right in front of the big fountain opposite the Istana.
we are not a couple mind u.
so dont misunderstand.

anyway.

she's the pop-up.
i'm the pop-up blocker.
wakaka!

now i'm
trying to let go of the past.
of the person who never appreciated me.
so sad..
EMOTICON! that's my middle name...
wakaka!
WUL!!!

Saturday, December 09, 2006

10:53:00 AM

Stoopid ass lecturer..
Chased me out of the class cuz i'm late.
Ok its acceptable that i was late laa.
But then there was 2hrs sia.
i can still attend the 2nd hr right?
But he insisted that i leave.
So ok i left.

And went straight to CGH.

Found out in the morning that my friend was admitted.
Sort of in a blur.
Then since i was chased out i asked Pat to tap for me.
And i went to visit him.
Met wif Zy at the hospital who told me bout Khai.
When we reached,
the nurses said he went for op.
so we decided to wait.
and eat for awhile.

Around 1plus we came back and Khai was in the ward.
His cheeks were puffy.
And only the hands are affected.
His condition is sort of bad.
But still he can joke abit.

sTOOOOMMMMKEEIINNGG!!

Hahaha!
Giler nye budak.
He looks like a hamster by the time the rest of Punkrock 201 came.
cuz his cheeks isnt that puffy.
But looks more chubby.
Hehehe..

Then since Khai is in hospital,
Revolt cannot jam.
Kesian.
I called Hoods and Gyant cuz we supposed to jam too.
But since Khai was in hosp we didnt haf the mood.
After visiting Khai we went back to 201.
Then there were the rest of them who didnt come.
Gyant said actually she wanted to jam.
Then i thought awhile.
I was really tired actually.
Cuz i woke up the earliest on that day cuz of that stupid Lab.
Then i hafta bring laptop for grp meeting.
which in the end i didnt go cuz i went to hosp.
But then i see Gyant haf already brought the file and drumsticks.
So i called Aunty and told her we wanted a room.
So yes we jammed in the end.

Jammed in Room 4.
and Gyant for the first time paiseh.
wakaka!
Cuz people can see the drummer.
wakaka!
and i am at the best position.
cuz my back faced the window.
heheh..

Okay btw that all happened on Thursday.

Yesterday i went to visit Khai again wif Gyant.
Then there was Fir, Farhan and Zy.
Khai was looking better.
He can walk alot.
Haha.
tak abes2 nk gi toilet.
Then Mel, Farish, Lat and Husain came.
We went down cuz Khai wanna smoke.
tangan dah bandage2 pon nk isap rokok.
haha!

Around 5 i decided to go to school.
Cuz i haf night class.
I reached late.
Haha.
Came around 6.29pm
The lecturer didnt wanna mark me present.
But she gave me a chance.
Thanks ah.

If not confirm Loi chase me sia.
wanna talk to me.
nag nag nag.
ish!

So anw back to today.
I'm having an appointment first
then at night most probably i'm meeting Kin and Iqah.
Hopefully things go smoothly.
Phew..

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

5:32:00 PM

Yes again.
I didnt go for my morning class.
like lazyyyy sia.

In the end i went to Rubiyah.
Ate breakfast Prata and drank Teh..
Woah..nice sia..
long time nvr drink Teh.
thn smoke chill in the morning.
Then joked around with my cute friend.
Haha!
Cute gilerrr arh siak.
Like reall only.
blueakk..

Then went to skool met the Animals.
Skali around 2nd lect Elyn broke down sia.
apparently her bf msged her something.
then sort of like fuck uh.
so she cried and cried and cried.
we went to the toilet.
Elyn cont. crying..
Let all ur heart out Elyn!
Cry till u feel like shouting "Fuck Lah!"
Hehs..
Relax laa ok..

Then took an obscene video of Candy.
Bombing.
Yeah..
i think i shall not post the video here..
u guys will not fancy the sight.
wakaka!

After school Elyn and Candy suggested to go Cafe Cartell.
to eat the 10 scoops ice cream.
like woahhhh sia..
COOKIES N CREAMMMMM!!
They said it was 10 scoops.
But at Junction 8 it was 8 sccops.
dunno why.
maybe cuz its at Junction 8.
so 8 scoops.
yeahh..
ok lame laa i noe..haha!

We ordered 5 scoops Cookies n Cream
2 scoops Chocolate
1 scoop Strawberry
Only to realise we should haf bought all Cookies n Cream
Cuz we ate that so fast
till we only left wif the Choc and Strawberry

After that Candy went to work.
Pat and me went home.
While Elyn couldnt decide where to go.
cuz at 8pm she's meeting her bf.
wanna settle things.
hope things goes smoothly.
=D

Otw home,
One Uncle suddenly talked to us.
We were sitting waiting for the train.
and there's this uncle beside Pat.
Then he suddenly asked,
"u two noe how to speak the Chinese and Indian one?"
(he's referring to the mrt announcement which will play repeatedly everytime the train is approaching)

Then i said "err yah abit..the indian one..manjell puterkell.."
Hahah!
I dunno how to spell.
but yeah.
that part.

then he said oh good.
and he started talking bout he noe how to speak malay abit.
now he old cannot learn more stuff.
so he cannot get the indian one.
then he said its good to learn mandarin.
blah blah blah..
and he asked us how to say 999 in Tamil.
So i said it.
wakaka!
He tot Pat's malay..when she's actually indian.

Then in the train he continued talking to us.
He said "Both of you can work in the showbiz. Becuz u (Pat) are short and cute so u can act like 13 yrs old. Then u (Me) have the looks confirm u can become actor. Then u two can act as comedians. Make people laugh. And u get money and u work u see.."

wakaka!
its like soo funny i cant help but giggle alot.
then he asked if we are schooling.
at first he tot both of us are sec school kids.
nabeii..
haha..
then we said we skool in NYP.
and he said "ooh..nursing izit?"
like why he tot of nursing first sia?
we look like a nurse?
hahahaha!

ok then he said this, "u nursing, go to library and find books on writing report. Becuz its very important u noe how to write report. like for example u write:
1. change of mattress done.
2. change patient clothes done.
3. Inform the other nurse u have done the work."

he talked as if we are not in nursing.
no2..
he talked as if our course didnt teach us report writing.
haha!
funny sia..
Then he talked about Tammy.
Like wth.
He said thats not Popularity.
Thats Notority?
(He meant notorious)

then i think Pat and I can read each other's mind.
cuz we both thought of alighting at YCK.
as if we going to school.
cuz i asked Pat "eh kiter ade skola kan?"
and Pat said wif full confidence "yeah.."
then we reached YCK.
told the uncle we going to school and alighted.
we walked to the staircase till the train moved off.
but once the train was off,
we made a U-turn and went back to the last cab platform.

HAHAHA!

yeah.
i do agree.
we have the potential of becoming actresses.
wakaka!

nicee one Pat.
haha!

Monday, December 04, 2006

11:55:00 PM

FULLMOON

shiny and sooo bright.
so much like a spot light.
its soo nicee..
thanx to Hakim for telling me.
so while lepaking at 201,
i looked at the moon.

moreover..
adding on to that beauty,
Zy noticed a rainbow curving right below the moon.
omg..
its like freaking nicee laa!
thn somehow the clouds moved.
and it sort of made a heart shape around the moon.
and the rainbow sort of lined the clouds.
DAMN FREAKING NICEE!
i looked at it till the wind blew the clouds,
and then it moved leaving only the moon.
shine so bright..

So i got to wish upon a moon.

I doubt the wish will come true thou.
But oh well.
juz for the fun of it right.

still..
the Fullmoon is soo nice.
i LOVE fullmoon.
haizzz..

anw yesterday was a great day.
cuz Hakimek came Eeeeshhooon..
wakaka!
finally sia.
if not always last minute cannot come.
or too late.
or wat laa the reasons all.
haiyo..
so he came and we went to eat at A&Z.

thn there's this guy how asked Hakim if the chair is taken,
"Bang kerusi ni ade orang dudok tk?"

and he was eating at that time so i answered,
"Tkde uh.."

And this wise ass Hakim said tu me,
"tu psl ur friends keep saying u look like boy.
even that guy called u 'Bang'.."

For ur info 'Bang' is shortform of 'Abang'
which is only for guys..
NOT girls..
ok..
stoopid Hakimek..arghh..
like wanna choke him while he's eating sia.

Ok then we went to 201,
took my guitar and we sat at 211
cuz Hakim is a scaredy cat.
haha!
sat at 211 with only Gyant and Hoods.
so he told me to play guitar.
and then i told him "u play uh."
cuz he told me he dunno how to play guitar.
thn gezz wat?

Nicee laa Hakim.

u like freaking noe how to play guitar.
ARGH!
u tricked me siaaa..
and then somehow alot of the guys who came down a while later kip saying ur face familiar.
including Zy.
and thn.....

u even went to PunkRock Returns sia!

Hakim seriously i felt like killing u.
like..
wahliows.
many things are secrets sia..
but nevermind..
i'm okay with it.
makes u more interesting..
hehehehe..

Then at night..
while Gyant and I were walking home,
this negro guy approached us and asked me if i knew how to play the guitar.
cuz i was carrying the guitar at that time.
and i was like "err yeah..but we juz beginners"
then he requested for a song.
seriously I noe sia wat song to play..
macam paham!
then i played 'Everything I Do'
Gyant sang..
wakaka!

our first ever gig sia!
accoustic gig..
woot!
wakaka..
seriously sia..macam paham sak.
thn that guy asked if we could one day chill and play guitar next time.
and we told me, lets see how..
haha!

So ok back to today,
after like months..
maybe around 4mths plus..
i finally got..
a nice kiss on my right cheek..
wakaka!

kaku nk mampos sak aku!

siak uh..
but its nice getting a kiss..
=D
thanx!
really cheered me up seh..

=]
hehe..

Sunday, December 03, 2006

1:09:00 AM

YEY!

Met up wif my HOT GFs!
Weeeweeeeeet!
Hahaha..

SYIDAH CHAOS!
SYIKIN BELO!
IQAH DOLLY!

CBD..
hehehe..

Okay first in the morning i went to Toa Payoh.
Went to support Fendy, Azhar, Fir, Haziq and Farish.
They joined the RiaRemix competition.
They remixed the song Getaran Jiwa.
Kindda cool yeah.
It was like freaking HOT sia!
i'm soooo fucking tanned now.
shit ass..
i'm already dark like DARK!
and now i'm DARKER!
ishh..
violent sia..

Thn i went to my friend's crib.
chill out.
played guitar.
cuz i'm like obsessed wif guitars now.
wakaka!
so once my friend was ready.
we went to Far East Plaza to eat.
haha..
klakar sia..
due orang pon bleh ketawe mcm budak giler.

We waited for my two gfs to come.
thn we walked together to Esplanade.
haha!
nicee to be jumping around wif Kin Belo.
Iqah biase laa..
like cool and sexy..
hahaha!

then my friend luckily can get along.
so we all bbl merepek laa.

Comicstrip performed at Esplanade.
And Shida,
i like ur dress..
hehe..
Taufiq was so sweet when Sid came.
He gave her a blank kiss while he was on stage.
awww..
nicee..

Their performance was great.
Lots of people came to watch.
some people skank.
mostly those young kids.
but wat the hell bout them.
Comicstrip was great.
CLAPCLAPSSS!

Then i didnt chill out with the 201 ppl.
cuz i wanna spend time wif my CBD GFs!
Hehehe..
Dah berzaman tk mit korang seh.
ye laa..
aku slalu ngn bdk punkrock 201 aku.
haha.
hopefully next week plan kiter nk mit again jadi uh siak.
tu planning paling besar seh!
hahahaha!

Anw i had a great time laa with them.
CBD rocks!
Kin! Jgn lupe send aku n iqah pics ye..
hahaha..
camwhore siak..

Today is the most relieving day ever.
After 2 weeks of torture.
Having to think all by myself.
I finally got to let it out.
And got some surprising responses too.
Which is great laa too me.
hahaha!

Oh yeah.
last but not least.
i SAW him.
no2 wait.
i got to hold his hands.
ok no as in shake his hands..
(sorry i noe this sounds like "errr..wtf?" HAHA!)
ahhh siall ahh..
meltingggggggggg!

i <3 caramel dip. shit u!