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Syidah.
Been living for 20years.
Love the guitars.
Passion for music.
Full-time nurse.
Orange is the new black if u ask me.
Deeply in love with Zyrul Fernandez Shahryszal.
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email: chaos_syidah@hotmail.com
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Sunday, January 14, 2007
3:47:00 PM
Am i still hanging on? But why must i? So why can't i let go? There is no more miracle that could happen. In the first place, there wasn't any miracle.. It was all plain luck.
Nothing could happen now.
So why am i not moving on? I shuld learn to be happy with what i haf now. But it's so difficult.
Easier said, I shuld be happy wif Zy. It has been close to 2mths i think. Or izit 3mths since we were very close. Like people keep mistaking us as a couple. Which we are not. Am i ready for him?
I shuld be ready. With the fact that my love is gone. And its like magic that Zy is around. Like i lost someone.. And TADA! There's Zyrul Shahryszal..
Its hard for me to let go of the past. But if he can easily let go.. Why cant i?
Years of loving him. Openly andsecretly. Is all gone now. I cant afford to hold on anymore.. Heart aches when i see him and her. But i hafta learn to get used to it. For now.. It's all bout Zy..
