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Syidah.
Been living for 20years.
Love the guitars.
Passion for music.
Full-time nurse.
Orange is the new black if u ask me.
Deeply in love with Zyrul Fernandez Shahryszal.
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email: chaos_syidah@hotmail.com
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Saturday, July 07, 2007
4:53:00 AM
Setting out my priorities:
Long term:
To get my bike license and a bike by December (the least)
I cant stand it anymore. I've been delaying my practicals since April. And now i see even more the importance of having them. For one, i wont haf to rely on others. For another its my own and ppl cant say much. If i haf a bike license, i hope to get a Yamaha x1. But Zy's asking me to take his RXZ. While he buy a X1. Hahaha! Unfair sehhh..lols.. But see how..pass first..HAHA!
2. To keep my relationship with Zy steadily.
We aren't in official terms. As in he's my bf and i'm his gf like the typical relationships. But we still love each other. So that's good enuf for me. This means i cant bear to haf him out of my life. Since we gt back together, things haf been smooth. But now parental figures are starting to be a problem. Their thoughts bout guys with bikes is trouble. Haiz..I can't possibly get a rich highly educated guy. Cuz they arent my type at all. I rather have a guy who makes me happy. Very happy. And for now, i prefer having a punk rock guy. =)
Short terms:
To complete my FYP and impress my lecturer and maybe even more. =)
To pass my upcoming exams which is insanely difficult
Life is short. I realised it quite awhile back. Sometimes i feel i dun haf much time to do things. And there are people who restrict me. It wont be long i step into my 20s And by then, many things will change. As said by tis guy at the jamming studio, "Its not your courage which will stop u, Its age which is catching up to u."
I think he's right. Somehow i feel that nw i dun feel like i would dare to do certain things which i had done during my secondary sch times again. I keep rationaling the consequences. I dunno laa..
Another thing, i feel like i haf no confidence as a Staff Nurse in the future. I dun think i can cope. And i feel its gonna be freaking stressful. Arghhh.. Sometimes i dunno why i chose nursing. It still havent show me the benefits. And the satisfaction of being a nurse. I hope things will change.
