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Syidah.
Been living for 20years.
Love the guitars.
Passion for music.
Full-time nurse.
Orange is the new black if u ask me.
Deeply in love with Zyrul Fernandez Shahryszal.
=)
email: chaos_syidah@hotmail.com
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Sunday, June 29, 2008

9:33:00 PM

I cant explain how shitty my ward is.
POLITICS spells everything.

I dunno y the fuck must there be any politics.
In nursing?
Cmon fucking colleagues of mine.
We are dealing with people for god's sake.
Why the fuck must there be gossiping of each other?
And saying things which arent true.
Why?
Cuz u wanna be in the good books of the sister?
Who is also bias?
Huh?
Or so u can get promoted fast?
FUCK IT!
You people are fucking selfish.
Hope u read my fucking blog.

Why dont i say it to ur face?
Hmm..
Let me see.
Cuz i dont even get the chance to speak?
HAH! Idiots.
Fucking senior staffs always have their way.
And they always have the sister by them.
And damn sisters.
I hate the ones who are in my side of the ward.
She listens only to her fucking pets.
Me?
No way is she gonna let me speak.

I hate the ward.

People told me to be patient.
My mom told me to be patient.
I will be the patient soon if this continues.
I've never suffered in any ward i ever went like this.
Never.
This ward,
made me so down, i cant even smile nowadays.
Even when im not at work.
My mind is so worked up, im too tired to talk.

I heard a saying from one of them.
The fat ugly attitude one.
That u wont be a staff nurse if u never cry at work.
WHAT THE FUCK?!
What fucking theory is tat?
So u must cry to be a staff?
or even a good staff?
NO FUCKING WAY OKAY!
They are sick.
All of them.
Sick in the brains.
I wanna transfer out a.s.a.p
They have their own kind.
They obviously do not need new people around.

And hear this.
One of my Nurse Clinician said:
"You were from 53c (medical ward), and i dont noe why u want to choose an orthopaedic ward"

She said that with a disgusted facial expression.

What is that you were trying to imply?
That u dont want me to be there?
Hmm..
Okay.
Lets see how.

I dont even have the heart to stay, fucking sister!

When im done in this ward, i swear im going some whr else.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

10:28:00 AM

i'm like totally sick nw.
shit ass.
but thanx to the fucking system, i will get a no pay leave even if i take mc.
Like chibye right?
Nw i'm having a computer class.
haha..
supposed to pay attention.
i am paying attention, partially.
LOL!

but tmw im on morning shift.
and if i still feel feverish, im gonna die.
HAHA!
okay im exaggerating, but watever.
I dunno but im still not accepted to the ward.
Only certain people are okay.
And i hate it.
Like im an outsider.fucking hell.

i tink im gonna stop blogging nw.

cuz im tired.
wanna sleep.
hahaha.

hope im okay for this saturday.
the nursing girls are going out.
im gonna ask Zy Kudut to follow.
cuz Shira said she's gonna ask her bf along too.
=)

Friday, June 06, 2008

11:47:00 PM

Went out with the crazy people from my ward 2 days ago.
We watched Sex and the City.
HAHA! I love the dog.lol!

(from left: Izaati, Me, Yuwen, Ruth, WeiTing)

Anw tday i went out with the lovely Enrolled Nurses.
After our Service Quality talk.
Juz went Puncak at Far East Plaza.
Cuz AJ wanted to eat there so much.
So then we went walking towards Esplanade.
We finally chilled out at Starbucks at the Fullerton bay thingy.
Hahaha..

(from left Fizah, Azi, AJ, Me, Linda)

P.S: Something is not right. And i hate that feeling.

Monday, June 02, 2008

11:59:00 PM

Was late for work again today.
Haha.
Shit i'm targetted.
Oh well at least i had a great time yesterday.

Went to Scissors,Paper,Rock gig.
My dearie n band performed.
And it was great.
I've not moshed and skanked as hard before.
But i dunno y but i felt like letting loose.
And boy it felt good.
Weeee!
I wanna go to more gigs.
Then at least i feel better than working all the time.

(mit new frends..Umi and Juni!)(Yes we were shagged after that..i think all of us are too old for this shit.lol!)

Sunday, June 01, 2008

5:41:00 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST ZYRUL!

He had turned 20 last 29th May.
And i'm so glad everything went okay.

I met him after work to mit his mom and bro and uncle.
We went Swensen's to eat.
Its been a long time since i had nicely expensive food.
HAHA!
Anw his mom is nice.
She looks like a young adult.Hehe..

Anw i bought Zy this Build-a-bear teddy bear.
Which i personally dressed him up similar to Zy.
A PUNKROCK BEAR! HAHA..And named him Zyl Fernandez..LOL!
It's damn cute.
And Zy laughed alot when i gave him the present.
Bet he didnt expect it.
But who cares? Its a birthday gift anw.

So then we headed to 201 and met the rest.
They bought this really delicious, yummilicious cake.
Its layers of chocolate.
Even Farish ate some.Thou he doesnt like chocolate.
HAHA! Its freaking nice.

Okay today was actually part of the celebration for Zy.
I wanted to make it a surprise but Aidil went,
"Eh Sat jadi tk tgk movie Narnia?" (on Zy's bday)
So it wasnt a surprise in the end. Hahs!
We went to watch The Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian.
It is damn nice!
For those who love magical movies, this is another good one.
I dunno but i think i haf a fetish for magical, fairytale like movies.
Not those kids type u noe.
But like Harry Potter and stuff.
Now Narnia is another one.WOOHOO!

At first i didnt think Prince Caspian was cute.
But as the movie went on,
his face just turned cuter 'magically' HAHA!
Aslan is cute too.
And Lucy.
And Edmond.
And the mouse.LOL!
Worth watching okay.

"FOR NARNIA!!!!!"
"FOR ASLAN!!!!!!!"

(extras no. 1: Farish..)(extras no. 2: Mas..)

(so that's the newest boyband in town!)